“What have you done with the children?” I ask, trying to
ignore the music which is edging its way into my brain.
“dance with us do it
dance with us”
My vision splits again, and this time, it seems like I’m
looking at them surrounding me, stood perfectly still, while also being aware
that they’re all dancing. All of them. Some of them just bobbing mildly, but
others whirling around frenziedly.
And I look around for a moment, trying again to process the
conflicting images in my eyes and head, and then I see the children.
There are maybe a dozen of them, and they’re all dancing.
Some of them are crying. They look exhausted, and I wonder if one of them is
Andrea.
Seeing them like that snaps me back into my own head for a
moment, and gives me something to distract myself from the constant thumping of
the music.
“You’re hurting them!” I shout at them.
One of them (or is it all of them?) replies:
“no not hurting just
dancing they dance with us forever we keep it fun for them”
The music is back, stronger than before, and now it begins
to hurt my head. Throbbing in time with the beat, which makes me want to join
it, to dance.
The pressure in my head feels like it wants to explode out
of my ears, eyes, nose and mouth in a torrent of blood and bile. I struggle
against it, still trying to make sense of them.
“What happens when they can’t dance any more?” I ask
quietly, sweat dripping down my face.
They start
their light laughing again, which gives me some irritation to focus on at the
very least.
“they don’t stop why would they stop they
keep dancing until they can’t dance no more can’t dance no more”
“Why… why do
you force them to do that?”
“no not force never force just let them
dance let the music do its work”
God help me,
I can feel the music.
“What do you
get out of it?” I ask.
For a moment,
the music falters as they hesitate in answering.
“they make us stronger their dancing it
feeds us it nourishes us it makes us…more”
They feed on them. The children. Of course they do. They use
the music to force them to dance, and then they feed on them like leeches.
My body wants to join it, even if my mind is rebelling
against the music. It can feel it, mirroring my heartbeat, and wanting to join
it, wanting to throw myself in and forget everything, just be part of the
stream of music.
I can feel the dance beginning in my heart and infecting the
rest of me, and I try to focus on Nina, on Maria, on Jack, on Andrea, even on
bloody Jamie bloody Moore….
“dance with us dance
with us join our dance dance with us”
No, there’s something else, isn’t there?
Something I’m forgetting.
Something Jamie said.
Think about who they prey on. That’s what he said, wasn’t
it?
I try, one last time to ignore the pounding in my head from
the music, and concentrate on that.
What did he mean?
They prey on children.
Why do they prey on children? Who preys on children? In the
wild, who preys on baby birds, on eggs, on cubs, on….
I breathe in and out slowly for a moment, trying to stop
fighting what I’m seeing and hearing.
They are beautiful and horrible. I am drawn to them and
repelled by them.
“dance with us”
But now I have their measure. Now I know what they are.
“No.” I say, as I allow the music to wash over me, and I
decide not to dance to it. That easily. I just decide it.
“but you want to you
want to dance with us”
And now there’s a tone in their voice that there wasn’t
before.
Fear.
“No.” I say again, and I walk towards them now. “No. I thought
you were powerful, but you’re not, are you?”
They withdraw from me, and they now look so much smaller
than they did earlier.
“You prey on children, because you’re not strong enough to prey
on adults. Are you?”
“no not true not true
we are powerful do not test us we are more powerful-“
I laugh at them, bitter and full of scorn.
“I’m standing right here. Bring me down if you want to, but
I don’t think you can. I think you have to try and trick your way, and that’s
why you work on children. But you brought a child of a friend of mine here, and
you did it to speak to me.”
The music has stopped now, and they’re all regarding me
carefully.
“So, I’m here.” I say. “What do you want?”
And then they do something I am not expecting.
They fall to their knees.
All of them.
“mercy”
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